i miss tumblr. so much has changed /: my ex has a gf which is okay i mean i knew we weren’t getting back i just didn’t think he’d move on so fast. but if he’s happy i’m happy for him. idk its crazy how one day someone can mean the world to you and the next day they’re jusst a memory. well im grduating next monday! I’m so excited but nervous at the same time. AHhh lol class of 2012

i just want someone i can chill with. someone who will just hug me when i need him and kiss me when i want. a friend who will know when your sad or happy.  

today was suppose to be a happy day,right? wrong! my family bbq made me miss him even more. he was always there with me,my partner in crime. i remember hiding eggs with him last easter. instead today i remember being curled up in a ball crying,praying to god to give me strenght to face the day. sometimes i feel like i can do this but he was my best friend. i let him in,he knows everything about me. things not even my mother knows. how could he treat me this way. he acts like i never existed,like we never existed. it hurts so much that i can’t even talk to him. knowing that i was such a regret to him kills me. i pray to god everyday so that i won’t love him anymore bcuz i love him so much but i don’t wanna love him if it’s gunna hurt this much.